An attempt at (dysfunctional) independence!

This morning I went to an outlet complex with my mother. It was an altogether good experience (though I must say, crowded too) and I acquired a lot of nice clothes and shoes such as a pair of canvas sketchers and Desigual jeans.

The weather was nice and the sky was promising. The forecast not so much, but it didn’t rain and the possibility of thunderstorms remained a distant and unlikely improbability.

I had plans to go out with two friends of mine (though one didn’t make it) and was extremely excited: lockdown, depression and inpatient hadn’t left me many possibilities to go out.

For those of you who regularly read my blog, you’ll know me and my boyfriend are on a break due to extreme dependence on him. I relied on him for everything, from medication to preparing my bag.

This is where this story starts. My mom who has been helping me function, as usual, nagged me about taking an umbrella. She was right, but it completely passed my mind and when I left the house 10 minutes late and umbrella-less I didn’t realize.

The weather was actually nice for the first few hours and I’m proud of myself: though dealing with the social anxiety was hard I managed to have fun.

I did however realize that I, and my friend, didn’t have umbrellas when it started drastically hailing. What a thunderstorm it was, by five minutes I was drenched.

So… What could I do? I considered calling my parents to take me home, but I was enjoying myself and didn’t want to go home early. I needed a solution and, as I started coughing, I needed one fast: I needed to change, on a very low budget and wasting no money.

We ran (literally) to decathlon to see what we could manage. Turns out: quite a lot. My final attire was, though, to say the least, ridiculous.

Antiskid transparent swimming pool shoes (6€); men’s swimwear (8€); a discounted wind jacket (14€).

Needless to say, I looked like a clown. All I needed was a snorkel and I was set to go (literally, I was already wearing my covid mask).

This was the result, and how I walked around town for hours.

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The day was still an overall good day but I learnt two important lessons. Well, three:

1. Don’t wear canvas if it might rain.

2. Always bring an umbrella, even if it seems useless. Think ahead.

3. Listen to mom’s nagging, there’s good reason too.

Yours sincerely,

Dysfunctional Girl