Author: DysfunctionalGirl

You can find most of this information in the introduction and much more will be revealed through my posts however I will give a brief intro. I am 19, have been suffering from severe mental health issues since 10 and am writing this blog both because I love writing and also because it is a way for me to express myself. Unfortunately I still suffer strongly from anorexia, self-harm, anxiety issues, insomnia and depression. This blog offers me a place of my own to do what is so hard for me in my life: show people who I, and not the diseases, really am.

My Happy Place

I close my eyes and I let my thoughts wander. I'm smiling, running through a field of lilies. I can sense the air around me, the beauty of the sun brightly shining on the field, making the dry grass glisten; the fresh smell of spring engulfing me in its embracing wrap; the sound of water … Continue reading My Happy Place →

Reflecting on the Holocaust

Now that Holocaust Remembrance Day has passed, it has left me thinking. My family is half Jewish. The survivors had a great strength: both physical and mental. Alongside this, they were fortunately graced with the arbitrary influence of random lucky circumstances and managed to make it through this horrifying experience. I have neither physical nor … Continue reading Reflecting on the Holocaust →

Loneliness

Dysfunctional Girl

How NOT to Finish a Videogame

There are very many ways to do this, as well as many innocent victims involved (usually the controller being used or the person you're screaming to about how unfair life is). That said, I love videogames. I always have and it is not something that I grew out of (as much as my parents prayed … Continue reading How NOT to Finish a Videogame →

How NOT to Clean your Room

This one here is an easy one. One technique that many teenagers/young adults (with and before me) have mastered through years of experience and leaving things as messy as possible. Often this was out of pure spite towards their mother's constant nagging telling them to “Clean your room! You live under my roof and I … Continue reading How NOT to Clean your Room →

The Power of Music

I'm feeling lost, cold. My head is spinning, causing me to keep my eyes sealed shut. Curled up in bed, I'm listening: every note reverberating in my mind, filling my soul with it's melody. It's relaxing, somehow soothing me from the inside. I let my body rock to the slow rhythm of violins and piano, … Continue reading The Power of Music →

How NOT to Blog (a few days in my dysfunctional life)

In this post I will try to give you an idea of how sincere my dysfunctionality is. I will, therefore, give you a snapshot of my week from Tuesday to Friday. Monday was relatively calm, after taking an exam my boyfriend came over and I was very tired so cuddled up and slept most of … Continue reading How NOT to Blog (a few days in my dysfunctional life) →

How NOT to drink responsibly

Now, before writing this post I would like to say two things, the first being that I live in a country where the legal drinking age is 18 and therefore being 19 I can now legally do so. The second is that I do in no way support underage drinking and, nonetheless, this post will … Continue reading How NOT to drink responsibly →

Anxiety Attack

I wrote this based on an anxiety attack I had this afternoon. Thankfully, my boyfriend was with me and the incident was resolved with no complications. My heart is beating, fast. Everything around me is so rapid it's confusing me, I can't get a hold of time and space. I hear him talking to me … Continue reading Anxiety Attack →

How NOT to be in a Fandom

The sense of belonging you feel when you're in a community which adores the same books/movies/videogames as you do is something I have always loved and since I learnt to read I was quick to obsess over every little detail of a new potential fandom. As soon as I got a little older and therefore … Continue reading How NOT to be in a Fandom →