These last few months have been tough, very. When you have a psychiatric disorder you like your external world stable, espescially since your inner existence is so screwed up. I live in Italy. The lockdown was long, really long (about three months to be precise). Of course, dysfunctional as I am, I did NOT deal … Continue reading How NOT to Survive a Lockdown
When you lose someone dear, you're overcome by a feeling of emptiness. Unfortunately, my grandmother passed last week. She had been suffering from Alzheimer's for some time now and it's been hard: now she can rest in peace. I dedicate this poem to her, for all the good she's done for others. She has always … Continue reading Rest in peace…
For some time now I have been struggling with depression. I had become too depent on my significant other and forgot I could live without him. Things got bad, really bad. This is what sucks about Borderline Personality Disorder. You know the mistakes you're making, you can see them, yet you can't control them. It's … Continue reading I haven’t written in so long…
Chapter 3- Part 1 (Leah) As soon as I was sure no one was watching I read the note. “Love and pain, Succumb to one another. With time I have come to discover, What it means to lose love.” It was a poem; one I had studied in “Old society literacy”. I remember it from … Continue reading When Night Falls: Chapter 3
Chapter two (Lucas) I looked at my dirt stained hands and couldn’t help feeling resentful. Not that I had expected a better placement, given my parents’ status as feelers, but it definitely would have been nice. The words I had written in the mud, “A wish for freedom.”, were sketched into my mind. Nonetheless, as … Continue reading When Night Falls: Chapter 2
I'm particularly adapt at this, I have a series of tips and tricks which are guaranteed to promise you a horrible time: let's get started! 1. Hiding. This of course is method number one. Say you've been dragged to a party against your will, or you're on an outing with friends because for some reason … Continue reading How NOT to Deal with Social Contexts
Sarah stopped pouting and her eyes shone with joy, she had once more gotten her way. I started reading: “Jennifer Rayon, 1989-2001. Died at age 11 due to car crash. You may no longer be here dear, but our hearts will always lie with you. I chose you, now I’m not going to let you … Continue reading When Night Falls: Chapter 1-Part 2
As you may have noticed, I've been quite inactive online since my last post. Yesterday, I was planning on uploading the second part of Chapter 1, however a few things got in the way.... The day started okay, if you count not being able to handle the guilt from eating okay. I was nervous, very, … Continue reading A really bad day…
Now, this happens to be an incredibly sensible topic. First off: I am in no way pro-Anorexia or pro-Bulimia and greatly dislike these groups, which makes writing a guide on how NOT to eat sound almost appalling to me. I will however try, since I believe some useful information can come out of it if … Continue reading How NOT To Eat – Eating Disorders
Chapter 1 (Leah) The thing that most scared me where the words so carefully carved on the tombstones. A dense fog covered the Assia cemetery, weighing down on every step I took. Either way, I proceeded, engulfed by fog and a seemingly endless forest of tombstones, so different from the silicon ones we now use. … Continue reading When Night Falls: Chapter 1- Part 1
How NOT to be functional 