How do you explain that not eating isn't a choice but a necessity? I've already tried explaining that the fear is too great, as is the guilt, but people still seem to not understand. It's like standing at the very top of a cliff you want to jump off. You may be afraid of the … Continue reading Anorexia isn’t a Choice
Ellen, our protagonist, is a young anorexic who has already been to four rehabilitation facilities and whose stepmother at this point desperate. Her fifth attempt is at a Los Angeles community called "Threshold", directed by Dr. William Beckham. She reluctantly accepts to spend a minimum of six weeks there, where she comes in contact with … Continue reading To the Bone – Review
TW for ED's. She could feel the numbness taking over. Usually, one can assume absence of anger is a good sign. Nonetheless, she tried to concentrate on how his attention wasn't on her and winced in frustration when it solicited no response. It wasn't selfish, she didn't want to get angry and lash out; it … Continue reading Spiralling
I wrote this after one of the many panic attacks I had during lockdown. I hope you enjoy. She tried to take a deep breath, only to find it felt like a thousand needles pricking her lungs. Her head felt heavy, eyes droopy, as the sought after high kicked in.She was in excruciating pain. Not … Continue reading A panic Attack – Short Story
We were engulfed by the swirling halo of smoke from our cigarettes, slowly dissolving into nothingness. The sky was grey; the bleak horizon seemed to wash out all colours, leaving me with an ominous feeling in my chest. “Tell me you story.” He observed me carefully, eyes suspicious. I could feel his anxiety and watched … Continue reading Suffering
Sometimes you're okay. Sometimes not. Today, I'm going to concentrate on the latter... This poem is about one of those moments, however, no matter how hopeless you feel, there's always hope. Run, I must run. Run. I'm running, life thrown at me as I glide through time, struggling to reach what is not possible to … Continue reading Run to the light
I'm particularly adapt at this, I have a series of tips and tricks which are guaranteed to promise you a horrible time: let's get started! 1. Hiding. This of course is method number one. Say you've been dragged to a party against your will, or you're on an outing with friends because for some reason … Continue reading How NOT to Deal with Social Contexts
Now, this happens to be an incredibly sensible topic. First off: I am in no way pro-Anorexia or pro-Bulimia and greatly dislike these groups, which makes writing a guide on how NOT to eat sound almost appalling to me. I will however try, since I believe some useful information can come out of it if … Continue reading How NOT To Eat – Eating Disorders
Ever since school has started, I have been (not so slowly) slipping down that usual path which always brings me to hospitalization. First, it's not eating breakfast. Then lunch, or any meal where you aren't home. Then the meals where you are home… and so on, until I'm not eating anything, fainting randomly and just … Continue reading Fighting Back!
A little message to all who are struggling with a relapse.
How NOT to be functional 