I have decided to write a brief post to keep the community updated on a great deal of new and positive events in my life. Many things have changed. I have a new boyfriend, I am trying my hardest (and slowly succeeding) in healing my relationship with my parents, for the first time I am … Continue reading My steps in recovery
I try to think about my future. My head starts spinning, I'm quickly getting confused and my heart starts beating rapidly. I imagine happiness, college, a husband, children, a life… And that is what I truly wish for, but the images are fading and others come into light. Hospital beds, rehab, feeding tubes, treatment plans… … Continue reading Fear
This image was (obviously, if you are familiar with the manga) inspired by Raven from "Pandora Hearts". Nonetheless, I feel it expresses the loneliness felt in being chained to your demon, unable to run from it. This relates to my latest post about anorexia which I hope you enjoyed, as well as this picture. Dysfunctional … Continue reading The Chains of Despair
This was written to try and express my thought processes as I fell into this trap and relapsed over and over again. Unfortunately it was a very heartfelt piece. --- She's telling me she knows how to fix me. She's whispering into my ear, sweet words of hope. She's promising numbness, absence of pain. She's … Continue reading Anorexia: whisperings
As you may have noticed, I haven't written in a few days and though that is due to my dysfunctionality, this time there were more profound personal reasons why and I would like to share some of them with you. The time will come where I will share more about my life but for now … Continue reading You are NEVER alone
The cold wind sent shivers up her spine. She did not feel at ease, anxiety increasing with every small step. She knew she was being paranoid, it was unlikely for anything to happen. She couldn’t ignore them though, the small voices of her parents revolting in her mind; warning her repeatedly that walking through a … Continue reading Descent into a Maze of Darkness
How NOT to be functional 