I know I'm a litte obsessed with exams right know, but I'm in the middle of an important session and still freaking out. One of the worst parts is, being online, you have to wait for them to start by yourself. Usually chatting with classmates got me through those moments: I don't have that now. … Continue reading Waiting for exams to start…
I have huge problems staying by myself. It's mainly connected to my borderline personality disorder, bit also a pain. I wish I could be more autonomous and am working on it. I hope to manage but, in the meantime, I present the guide on How NOT to Stay Alone. 1. Be anxious. Make sure your … Continue reading How NOT to Manage being Alone
Yesterday was a special day for a very simple reason: I managed to relax. My parents brought me to an adventure park in the mountains and I had a great time. It's strange for me to feel in a good mood, but I was. On the courses, my mind was free. It was just me, … Continue reading A special day…
I have exams in a little over a week and though I already wrote a "How NOT to Study" post, I now feel the need to explain some of the mistakes I realize I'm making. First of all, I'm exhausted. To the point where by the end of the day I can't even watch TV … Continue reading How NOT to Study – Reprise
Sometimes you can't plan everything. I like walking places, but not being alone and often try to make plans so that I arrive right on time to meet someone walking there. Of course, many things can go wrong. Today I had plans with two friends: one cancelled last minute, the other arrived an hour late. … Continue reading Yesterday I didn’t give in… We can do it
Panicking is the natural result of anxiety. Imagine a fibonacci spiral, at the beginning you have the seeds of anxiety. Let's say these seeds proceed and manage to complete a whole three cycles, you are therefore three cycles closer to panic and feel three times more anxious... and so on. At a certain point (for … Continue reading How NOT to NOT Panic
As often happens, I was assigned a group project by a professor who is, in my opinion, more dysfunctional than I am. This project makes no sense to me and I would be lying if I said I weren't panicking, a lot. I usually write how NOT to guides, but in this case I myself … Continue reading How to Deal with Anxiety over a Project
I wrote this after one of the many panic attacks I had during lockdown. I hope you enjoy. She tried to take a deep breath, only to find it felt like a thousand needles pricking her lungs. Her head felt heavy, eyes droopy, as the sought after high kicked in.She was in excruciating pain. Not … Continue reading A panic Attack – Short Story
It is currently 11,45 PM, I've taken all my sleeping medication, yet I can't seem to fall asleep. Don't get me wrong, I feel exhausted and would wish for nothing more than a good night's sleep, but unfortunately this isn't the case and as soon as I put my head on the pillow I'm overwhelmed … Continue reading Sleeping… Or absence of such
The past and (in some countries) current lockdowns have generated various mental health issues. Rates of depression, anxiety and paranoia are sky high, even in those who don't usually suffer from mental illness. This is not my case: well, I struggled a lot so it is, but I have a pre-existing condition which completely blew … Continue reading Surviving a Lockdown with BPD, relationship issues: dependency
How NOT to be functional 