I was on holiday with my boyfriend... Now ex-boyfriend. I'm honestly not sure what happened, I found a note in his phone saying he was thinking of breaking up with me when the holidays where over... I called my mom crying, the holidays where cut short and we broke up. I'm heartbroken. I feel empty … Continue reading I haven’t written in a while…
I call it agony because I myself don't know how to define it. Short breath, a pressing feeling on my chest suffocating me; the feeling of hopelessness, kind of. A feeling so devastating it wracks my body, leaving me feeling somehow emotionally splintered. My muscles feel heavy, moving is out of question, as if the … Continue reading Agony
As often happens, I was assigned a group project by a professor who is, in my opinion, more dysfunctional than I am. This project makes no sense to me and I would be lying if I said I weren't panicking, a lot. I usually write how NOT to guides, but in this case I myself … Continue reading How to Deal with Anxiety over a Project
For some time now I have been struggling with depression. I had become too depent on my significant other and forgot I could live without him. Things got bad, really bad. This is what sucks about Borderline Personality Disorder. You know the mistakes you're making, you can see them, yet you can't control them. It's … Continue reading I haven’t written in so long…
Chapter 3- Part 1 (Leah) As soon as I was sure no one was watching I read the note. “Love and pain, Succumb to one another. With time I have come to discover, What it means to lose love.” It was a poem; one I had studied in “Old society literacy”. I remember it from … Continue reading When Night Falls: Chapter 3
I'm particularly adapt at this, I have a series of tips and tricks which are guaranteed to promise you a horrible time: let's get started! 1. Hiding. This of course is method number one. Say you've been dragged to a party against your will, or you're on an outing with friends because for some reason … Continue reading How NOT to Deal with Social Contexts
As you may have noticed, I've been quite inactive online since my last post. Yesterday, I was planning on uploading the second part of Chapter 1, however a few things got in the way.... The day started okay, if you count not being able to handle the guilt from eating okay. I was nervous, very, … Continue reading A really bad day…
Now, this happens to be an incredibly sensible topic. First off: I am in no way pro-Anorexia or pro-Bulimia and greatly dislike these groups, which makes writing a guide on how NOT to eat sound almost appalling to me. I will however try, since I believe some useful information can come out of it if … Continue reading How NOT To Eat – Eating Disorders
Chapter 1 (Leah) The thing that most scared me where the words so carefully carved on the tombstones. A dense fog covered the Assia cemetery, weighing down on every step I took. Either way, I proceeded, engulfed by fog and a seemingly endless forest of tombstones, so different from the silicon ones we now use. … Continue reading When Night Falls: Chapter 1- Part 1
Ever since school has started, I have been (not so slowly) slipping down that usual path which always brings me to hospitalization. First, it's not eating breakfast. Then lunch, or any meal where you aren't home. Then the meals where you are home… and so on, until I'm not eating anything, fainting randomly and just … Continue reading Fighting Back!
How NOT to be functional 