During the course of my research for my last post, I came across a fellow sufferer who wrote a beautiful poem about how he feels. With his permission, I'm posting it here on my blog, alongside his introduction: "I write lyrics and make songs to Express how I feel and well this is it for … Continue reading What it means to have BPD – a poem, James Jameson
I wrote a post on what it means to me to have BPD, however it isn't the same for everybody. The last month I have been collecting answers to this very question and this post is the result of my research. Remember, BPD is a serious disability that can ruin people's lives and should be … Continue reading What does it mean to have BPD? – a collective answer
I try to fill my time. I'll do almost anything to not feel alone and empty because I know that puts me in panic mode... It doesn't matter. Whether I'm drawing, gaming, writing, watching TV or other, there comes a time of day where I feel overwhelmed by emptiness. It's very frustrating. Sometimes I'll even … Continue reading Chronic feelings of emptiness…
To me, it means I can't trust my feeling, my thoughts or my actions. It means I have a lack of control over everything I do. It means I'm unable to have a stable relationship without becoming codependent. It means I fight with my parents when all I want to do is hug them. It … Continue reading What does it mean to you to suffer from BPD? – My personal experience
This article doesn't relate to only me, but all of the diagnostic criteria for BPD. For doctors to diagnose Borderline personality disorder (BPD) you must show a long-standing history of at least five of the following symptoms.We all know it and in a way we all think: "well, maybe I have BPD". No, it doesn't … Continue reading What is BPD?
After a very strong and long period of idealisation, I found myself in the opposite position with my partner: devaluation. I feel hurt, upset and alone. I know I shouldn't, yet I do. This is an adaptation of lyrics to a rap song I wrote, turned into poem, that expresses how I and many people … Continue reading Devaluation
I wrote this after one of the many panic attacks I had during lockdown. I hope you enjoy. She tried to take a deep breath, only to find it felt like a thousand needles pricking her lungs. Her head felt heavy, eyes droopy, as the sought after high kicked in.She was in excruciating pain. Not … Continue reading A panic Attack – Short Story
It is currently 11,45 PM, I've taken all my sleeping medication, yet I can't seem to fall asleep. Don't get me wrong, I feel exhausted and would wish for nothing more than a good night's sleep, but unfortunately this isn't the case and as soon as I put my head on the pillow I'm overwhelmed … Continue reading Sleeping… Or absence of such
Sometimes you're okay. Sometimes not. Today, I'm going to concentrate on the latter... This poem is about one of those moments, however, no matter how hopeless you feel, there's always hope. Run, I must run. Run. I'm running, life thrown at me as I glide through time, struggling to reach what is not possible to … Continue reading Run to the light
For some time now I have been struggling with depression. I had become too depent on my significant other and forgot I could live without him. Things got bad, really bad. This is what sucks about Borderline Personality Disorder. You know the mistakes you're making, you can see them, yet you can't control them. It's … Continue reading I haven’t written in so long…
How NOT to be functional 