I wrote a post on what it means to me to have BPD, however it isn't the same for everybody. The last month I have been collecting answers to this very question and this post is the result of my research. Remember, BPD is a serious disability that can ruin people's lives and should be … Continue reading What does it mean to have BPD? – a collective answer
I try to fill my time. I'll do almost anything to not feel alone and empty because I know that puts me in panic mode... It doesn't matter. Whether I'm drawing, gaming, writing, watching TV or other, there comes a time of day where I feel overwhelmed by emptiness. It's very frustrating. Sometimes I'll even … Continue reading Chronic feelings of emptiness…
To me, it means I can't trust my feeling, my thoughts or my actions. It means I have a lack of control over everything I do. It means I'm unable to have a stable relationship without becoming codependent. It means I fight with my parents when all I want to do is hug them. It … Continue reading What does it mean to you to suffer from BPD? – My personal experience
After a very strong and long period of idealisation, I found myself in the opposite position with my partner: devaluation. I feel hurt, upset and alone. I know I shouldn't, yet I do. This is an adaptation of lyrics to a rap song I wrote, turned into poem, that expresses how I and many people … Continue reading Devaluation
I wrote this after one of the many panic attacks I had during lockdown. I hope you enjoy. She tried to take a deep breath, only to find it felt like a thousand needles pricking her lungs. Her head felt heavy, eyes droopy, as the sought after high kicked in.She was in excruciating pain. Not … Continue reading A panic Attack – Short Story
This is how I felt during most of the lockdown. Empty, without the will to even get out of bed. Never have I spent so many hours gazing into nothingness. It was horrible... Dysfunctional Girl
How NOT to be functional 