I was on holiday with my boyfriend... Now ex-boyfriend. I'm honestly not sure what happened, I found a note in his phone saying he was thinking of breaking up with me when the holidays where over... I called my mom crying, the holidays where cut short and we broke up. I'm heartbroken. I feel empty … Continue reading I haven’t written in a while…
I'm in a moment of my life where I feel an enourmous amount of stress piling up and really feel the need to vent, so here it goes: I don't feel in touch with my emotions, as if the stress were suffocating them. I'll feel vaguely sad or happy, but feeling them this way just … Continue reading Stress, stress and more stress
This morning I went to an outlet complex with my mother. It was an altogether good experience (though I must say, crowded too) and I acquired a lot of nice clothes and shoes such as a pair of canvas sketchers and Desigual jeans. The weather was nice and the sky was promising. The forecast not … Continue reading An attempt at (dysfunctional) independence!
The past and (in some countries) current lockdowns have generated various mental health issues. Rates of depression, anxiety and paranoia are sky high, even in those who don't usually suffer from mental illness. This is not my case: well, I struggled a lot so it is, but I have a pre-existing condition which completely blew … Continue reading Surviving a Lockdown with BPD, relationship issues: dependency
For some time now I have been struggling with depression. I had become too depent on my significant other and forgot I could live without him. Things got bad, really bad. This is what sucks about Borderline Personality Disorder. You know the mistakes you're making, you can see them, yet you can't control them. It's … Continue reading I haven’t written in so long…
I'm particularly adapt at this, I have a series of tips and tricks which are guaranteed to promise you a horrible time: let's get started! 1. Hiding. This of course is method number one. Say you've been dragged to a party against your will, or you're on an outing with friends because for some reason … Continue reading How NOT to Deal with Social Contexts
As you may have noticed, I've been quite inactive online since my last post. Yesterday, I was planning on uploading the second part of Chapter 1, however a few things got in the way.... The day started okay, if you count not being able to handle the guilt from eating okay. I was nervous, very, … Continue reading A really bad day…
An honest insight... what it means to have a bad week when you suffer from mixed psychiatric disorders.
I have started Scuola Holden: The Writing Academy. I'm exited, doing better (though not perfect) and positive about it. Read more below and if you're new: welcome to the Dysfunctionality club!
There are many ways not to listen to music but one in particular tops all others. I'm sure you are all aware of that little icon you can tap, also known as "repeat one". Whenever you see this item, trust me, don't press it. Ever, it's a trap. You see, music producers, especially talented ones, … Continue reading How NOT to Listen to Music
How NOT to be functional 