During the course of my research for my last post, I came across a fellow sufferer who wrote a beautiful poem about how he feels. With his permission, I'm posting it here on my blog, alongside his introduction: "I write lyrics and make songs to Express how I feel and well this is it for … Continue reading What it means to have BPD – a poem, James Jameson
I wrote a post on what it means to me to have BPD, however it isn't the same for everybody. The last month I have been collecting answers to this very question and this post is the result of my research. Remember, BPD is a serious disability that can ruin people's lives and should be … Continue reading What does it mean to have BPD? – a collective answer
I'm going through massive life changes right now and though I see a lot of positive, I also feel confused and scared. This short excerpt from a short story describes my confusion and sense of loss. Truth be told, I'm scared of losing myself and becoming someone else. I'm drowning. Algae are suffocating me, pulling … Continue reading Change and fear
I try to fill my time. I'll do almost anything to not feel alone and empty because I know that puts me in panic mode... It doesn't matter. Whether I'm drawing, gaming, writing, watching TV or other, there comes a time of day where I feel overwhelmed by emptiness. It's very frustrating. Sometimes I'll even … Continue reading Chronic feelings of emptiness…
How do you explain that not eating isn't a choice but a necessity? I've already tried explaining that the fear is too great, as is the guilt, but people still seem to not understand. It's like standing at the very top of a cliff you want to jump off. You may be afraid of the … Continue reading Anorexia isn’t a Choice
Just a quick sketch to remind myself that there is always hope. Yours sincerely, Dysfunctional Girl
Relief is an amazing feeling, a sort of tranquility to which you succumb when your stress level falls. Your muscles relax, releasing the accumulated stress. When you lie down, you melt into your bed. You feel something distinctly different in your whole body. My nerves were as tense as the cords of a violin but … Continue reading Relief after exams…
To me, it means I can't trust my feeling, my thoughts or my actions. It means I have a lack of control over everything I do. It means I'm unable to have a stable relationship without becoming codependent. It means I fight with my parents when all I want to do is hug them. It … Continue reading What does it mean to you to suffer from BPD? – My personal experience
I know I'm a litte obsessed with exams right know, but I'm in the middle of an important session and still freaking out. One of the worst parts is, being online, you have to wait for them to start by yourself. Usually chatting with classmates got me through those moments: I don't have that now. … Continue reading Waiting for exams to start…
This article doesn't relate to only me, but all of the diagnostic criteria for BPD. For doctors to diagnose Borderline personality disorder (BPD) you must show a long-standing history of at least five of the following symptoms.We all know it and in a way we all think: "well, maybe I have BPD". No, it doesn't … Continue reading What is BPD?
How NOT to be functional 