I must say, I have never really been the girl to love shopping. Actually, truth be told, I hate it with all my heart. I am twenty years old and am still jubilant my mother still buys me most of my clothes! The very idea of having to walk around shops, try things on and … Continue reading How NOT to Shop (part 1: retail therapy)
Fear of change is nothing if not fear of the unknown. When failure is your certainty, it is fear of failure that becomes your cripple. Change implies the abandonment of a static condition of misery and illness. This may sound outstanding ; however... when that is all you know, the fear of failure and return … Continue reading Fear of Change
As already mentioned in previous posts, I spent a week in the United States. I was there to visit my family for my cousin's wedding and all things considered, I must say I had a lot of fun. This of course does not mean that there weren't any struggles. Weddings are of course big social … Continue reading A beautiful wedding… Social gatherings and difficulties
My trip in New York city has begun! I must say, it did get off to a pretty rough start. There aren't many occasions in which long flights and travel days are pleasant, but when they happen to coincide with not being able to smoke and being in close proximity with two people you love, … Continue reading New York City! A very long plane ride…
Hello Dysfunctionality club! Though I have kept you slightly updated with the last few posts, I am officially starting the blog again! These months have been quite complicated: I have had to (and still am working on it) confront some of my greatest demons, even those so well hidden I myself didn't realize confronting them … Continue reading I’m back!
I try to think about my future. My head starts spinning, I'm quickly getting confused and my heart starts beating rapidly. I imagine happiness, college, a husband, children, a life… And that is what I truly wish for, but the images are fading and others come into light. Hospital beds, rehab, feeding tubes, treatment plans… … Continue reading Fear
A beautiful symphony of orchestrated dances, spinning nets with words more powerful than all; melodies created, choreographed interactions of gorgeous souls spinning in their endless dance of light, creating a lyrical heaven in which all instruments have their place, a role and a purpose. Then there's me, the lone note the composer forgot to cancel … Continue reading Out of Sync
This image was (obviously, if you are familiar with the manga) inspired by Raven from "Pandora Hearts". Nonetheless, I feel it expresses the loneliness felt in being chained to your demon, unable to run from it. This relates to my latest post about anorexia which I hope you enjoyed, as well as this picture. Dysfunctional … Continue reading The Chains of Despair
This was written to try and express my thought processes as I fell into this trap and relapsed over and over again. Unfortunately it was a very heartfelt piece. --- She's telling me she knows how to fix me. She's whispering into my ear, sweet words of hope. She's promising numbness, absence of pain. She's … Continue reading Anorexia: whisperings
Not sleeping or wrongly sleeping is one of my main areas of expertise. Either way, throughout the years I have found multiple ways to stay awake all night, leaving me looking like a zombie with purple circles under my eyes any goth person would be jealous of. This is not something I enjoy, I absolutely … Continue reading How NOT to Sleep
How NOT to be functional 