I haven't written in a while. Honestly, when my boyfriend broke up with me, I was heartbroken. I passed a lot of days in bed feeling lonely and depressed and lost a lot of my will to live, it was as if a spark had been turned off. This is why I didn't write, I … Continue reading Healing
As you may have noticed, I've been quite inactive online since my last post. Yesterday, I was planning on uploading the second part of Chapter 1, however a few things got in the way.... The day started okay, if you count not being able to handle the guilt from eating okay. I was nervous, very, … Continue reading A really bad day…
Ever since school has started, I have been (not so slowly) slipping down that usual path which always brings me to hospitalization. First, it's not eating breakfast. Then lunch, or any meal where you aren't home. Then the meals where you are home… and so on, until I'm not eating anything, fainting randomly and just … Continue reading Fighting Back!
This post is for all the readers who have been here from the beginning. I realize I have now promised to start writing again three times, and therefore feel I need to write an article to prove I'm serious about. Thus, I present: How Not to Restart a Blog. One of the most important aspect … Continue reading How NOT to Restart a Blog
I have started Scuola Holden: The Writing Academy. I'm exited, doing better (though not perfect) and positive about it. Read more below and if you're new: welcome to the Dysfunctionality club!
Her hair swayed in the wind, caressing her cheeks and gently wrapping itself around her gentle features. The first few droplets could be felt and she opened her arms wide, welcoming the water as if they were a source of energy. Splattered patterns of wet fabric formed spirals and swirls on her summer clothes as … Continue reading Ambient Piece
Today I would like to talk about a very specific issue, impulses. Ever since I started manifesting pathological behaviour, they have been a huge problem and have led to very dangerous behaviours on many occasions. When I talk about impulses, I am referring to that series of self-harming actions that one may feel compelled to … Continue reading Impulses
This post is different from others, in a sense meaning that I don't have that much to say precisely, however I feel that my current emotional state is such that sharing it with you is a good idea. It's very simple actually, more simple than anything I have tried to explain before. So simple, yet … Continue reading Happiness
A few days ago I wrote a post about the fear of change. This is because, over the last few days, I was overwhelmed by the thought of who I would be and what would remain of me without the eating disorder. It is always nice to imagine being healthy when you're so far away … Continue reading Leap of faith
I must say, I have never really been the girl to love shopping. Actually, truth be told, I hate it with all my heart. I am twenty years old and am still jubilant my mother still buys me most of my clothes! The very idea of having to walk around shops, try things on and … Continue reading How NOT to Shop (part 1: retail therapy)
How NOT to be functional 