I call it agony because I myself don't know how to define it. Short breath, a pressing feeling on my chest suffocating me; the feeling of hopelessness, kind of. A feeling so devastating it wracks my body, leaving me feeling somehow emotionally splintered. My muscles feel heavy, moving is out of question, as if the … Continue reading Agony
Fear of change is nothing if not fear of the unknown. When failure is your certainty, it is fear of failure that becomes your cripple. Change implies the abandonment of a static condition of misery and illness. This may sound outstanding ; however... when that is all you know, the fear of failure and return … Continue reading Fear of Change
I try to think about my future. My head starts spinning, I'm quickly getting confused and my heart starts beating rapidly. I imagine happiness, college, a husband, children, a life… And that is what I truly wish for, but the images are fading and others come into light. Hospital beds, rehab, feeding tubes, treatment plans… … Continue reading Fear
How NOT to be functional 