In this post I would like to express my eternal gratitude to a person who has been and is incredibly close to me, helping me every step of the way. This person has shown bravery, patience, understanding and love in ways I did not believe possible. For over four years he has been here through … Continue reading Dear Love
I, like so many others, have had my fair share of messed up, wrong and just generally dysfunctional relationships. Whether it my or their fault, these partners often even somehow contributed to the issues that I now have. Nonetheless, I have learnt a few things, specifically: how NOT to be in a relationship. 1.Over-clinginess. I … Continue reading How NOT to Be in a Relationship
I try to think about my future. My head starts spinning, I'm quickly getting confused and my heart starts beating rapidly. I imagine happiness, college, a husband, children, a life… And that is what I truly wish for, but the images are fading and others come into light. Hospital beds, rehab, feeding tubes, treatment plans… … Continue reading Fear
A beautiful symphony of orchestrated dances, spinning nets with words more powerful than all; melodies created, choreographed interactions of gorgeous souls spinning in their endless dance of light, creating a lyrical heaven in which all instruments have their place, a role and a purpose. Then there's me, the lone note the composer forgot to cancel … Continue reading Out of Sync
This was written to try and express my thought processes as I fell into this trap and relapsed over and over again. Unfortunately it was a very heartfelt piece. --- She's telling me she knows how to fix me. She's whispering into my ear, sweet words of hope. She's promising numbness, absence of pain. She's … Continue reading Anorexia: whisperings
Not sleeping or wrongly sleeping is one of my main areas of expertise. Either way, throughout the years I have found multiple ways to stay awake all night, leaving me looking like a zombie with purple circles under my eyes any goth person would be jealous of. This is not something I enjoy, I absolutely … Continue reading How NOT to Sleep
This is a problem many people have, it may even be what may be considered the downside (if one must insist on finding one) of videogames and the reason why there are South Korean children able to beat you and a team of five by themselves. With my incredibly dysfunctional lifestyle, I have found that … Continue reading How NOT to Play Videogames (obsessive playing)
As you may have noticed, I haven't written in a few days and though that is due to my dysfunctionality, this time there were more profound personal reasons why and I would like to share some of them with you. The time will come where I will share more about my life but for now … Continue reading You are NEVER alone
How NOT to be functional 