Dear Love

In this post I would like to express my eternal gratitude to a person who has been and is incredibly close to me, helping me every step of the way.

This person has shown bravery, patience, understanding and love in ways I did not believe possible. For over four years he has been here through the good and bad times, helping me and trying to make the best of things no matter how bad they got. He stroked my hair calming down panic attacks infinite times, ran to my aid in my moments of greatest weakness and danger, has taken upon responsibilities that no one his age should have had to deal with and has been a constant source of strength and comfort. Living over an hour car ride away, he visited me every day in the hospital for months. He buys me little gifts when he knows I’m down to get me to smile. He spends hours talking to me about the same topics over and over again just to calm me. He listens to me sing for hours because he knows it relaxes me. He makes sure I take my medications, tries to protect me from triggers and spends entire days binge watching sitcoms he couldn’t care less about just because I want to.

Ever since I met him that day at the climbing gym and we started hanging out, he has been a fundamental part of my life and I wouldn’t want it any other way.

He deals with my crisis, my anxiety attacks, my panic attacks… he’s understanding when I’m nervous and irritable, always careful about how I’m feeling and one of the most understanding people I know, despite his initial lack of knowledge when it comes to mental illnesses. He is an anchor in my life, and supports me in everything I do, including this blog. It is obvious who I’m talking about: my boyfriend and web-editor/manager of this very blog, in his continued support of my projects and recovery.

Most important of all, he has never lost faith in me. I want to heal and I want to heal for myself, so that I can live a life worth living. Nonetheless, I also want to heal for him, because as of right know the life worth living I so crave includes him.

When you suffer from mental health issues, relationships can be even more complicated than they already usually are and very difficult to deal with. Having someone to lean on though can make a huge difference and for me it has.

Thank you for everything, I love you and Happy Saint Valentine’s Day.

Yours sincerely,

Dysfunctional Girl