This image was (obviously, if you are familiar with the manga) inspired by Raven from "Pandora Hearts". Nonetheless, I feel it expresses the loneliness felt in being chained to your demon, unable to run from it. This relates to my latest post about anorexia which I hope you enjoyed, as well as this picture. Dysfunctional … Continue reading The Chains of Despair
This was written to try and express my thought processes as I fell into this trap and relapsed over and over again. Unfortunately it was a very heartfelt piece. --- She's telling me she knows how to fix me. She's whispering into my ear, sweet words of hope. She's promising numbness, absence of pain. She's … Continue reading Anorexia: whisperings
Not sleeping or wrongly sleeping is one of my main areas of expertise. Either way, throughout the years I have found multiple ways to stay awake all night, leaving me looking like a zombie with purple circles under my eyes any goth person would be jealous of. This is not something I enjoy, I absolutely … Continue reading How NOT to Sleep
She watched the droplets of water create concentric waves on the otherwise still water. The tears were slowly streaming down her cheeks, dripping down her wet chin. She sniffled and looked at the lake, vision blurred by tears. Sitting on the dock, she let her bare feet graze the freezing water; she instantly felt reassured … Continue reading Relief
This is a problem many people have, it may even be what may be considered the downside (if one must insist on finding one) of videogames and the reason why there are South Korean children able to beat you and a team of five by themselves. With my incredibly dysfunctional lifestyle, I have found that … Continue reading How NOT to Play Videogames (obsessive playing)
As you may have noticed, I haven't written in a few days and though that is due to my dysfunctionality, this time there were more profound personal reasons why and I would like to share some of them with you. The time will come where I will share more about my life but for now … Continue reading You are NEVER alone
When I was inpatient my psychiatrist told me to try and write a prologue or short story which was fantasy, my favourite genre. This is what I came up with and I would like to share it with you. It was a moment in my life in which I did not see much hope and … Continue reading Kingdom of Dust
The cold wind sent shivers up her spine. She did not feel at ease, anxiety increasing with every small step. She knew she was being paranoid, it was unlikely for anything to happen. She couldn’t ignore them though, the small voices of her parents revolting in her mind; warning her repeatedly that walking through a … Continue reading Descent into a Maze of Darkness
I welcome you to part two of this post, if you haven't already read the first go check it out! What I want to discuss today is reading lists, the very reason why so many books I want to and am sincerely interested in reading remain forgotten and unread. It all stems from the fact … Continue reading How NOT to Read – Part 2 (reading lists)
I absolutely adore reading, in fact it is probably one of my favourite activities and has been since the day I learnt that a few random letters strung together on a page formed words. This though is where my obsessive personality comes in, with a small touch of OCD. I have rules when it comes … Continue reading How NOT to Read – part 1 (rules)
How NOT to be functional 